Ya know, for everything that I’ve done in my life, I don’t understand why God still loves me. I have this terrible thing with trying to take control of my life and telling God that He can watch and make sure that I’m doing it right. Bad idea. I need to listen to Him more than telling Him to listen to me.
The thing that I guess bothers me the most is that He doesn’t leave me alone, and He keeps taking care of me. He loves me regardless of the really dumb things that I do. He doesn’t stop loving me when I try to get ahead of him. I just don’t get it. But I’m glad He’s there for me.
I came the closest to being mad at Him for the first time in my life. It really scared me. But I didn’t succumb to it. And I’m thankful.
